Something is missing…something which I can’t put my fingers on and can’t define it either. All is well but ‘that’ something is missing…the push or it has to be called a pull ?
Oh nothing serious a problem this side of the world..but something has slowed down over a period of time..a drive within me..something seems to be lost..
It’s like dealing with yourself alone. You know what’s wrong inside of you but you can’t cure it. You don’t know how to express it either so that someone can find a solution for you. And you know very well that it’s YOU who has to decide-whether to stay in this phase or come out of it.
It’s not painful..it’s not boring to be in this phase.It’s just that it’s different. You feel different for a while.Disconnected,actually. Nothing seems to be wrong but nothing is same as earlier too.
Still haven’t figured out what’s this phase is. Or is it a phase at all ? Or a permanent thing to happen ?Is it about growing up…maturity dawning ? Oh but nothing is permanent in this world,they say !
I kind of feel that I’m floating into this thin air of confusion and to my surprise this is fun.On one hand I’m confused and unable to decide what’s wrong/right with me and on the other hand I seem to be enjoying this all ! Another level of confusion it seems 🙂
So! Confusion chaos this,I guess !
Or may be it’s just normal and I’m giving it more than required importance ! Hmm..may be yes ! I think yes,that’s right !