Some things are best to be forgotten in life. But ironically those are the only things which are hard to bury or erase from your mind. Have you experienced the same problem? For me it’s very common. And coming out of the mind machine is near to impossible at times. I try to divert my thoughts to more positive things and things that would make me happy. But then every time this formula doesn’t work! And that is the time when I hate it the most. Why do I have to reach to that point at all? Why do I have to think about those who have nothing but used me and ditched in life? Specially those whom I called my friends?
My heart aches every time the ghosts from the past pop their heads up and I tend to think do these people even regret for a moment for what they’ve done to me? Do they ever feel guilty, even for a second, in their lives?
But let me tell you these ghosts are scary. Sometimes these are very dominant and refuse to go away by thinking positive or diverting the mind. The best option I thought was to sleep and let the darkness of my eyes gulp them all down. But hey these ghosts are so dear to me, seems like, that they take form of my dreams at times 😦 Don’t these love me too much, eh?
The whole point is I want to erase them forever from my life. I don’t want to revisit the incidences which would give me pain every time. I want to run away from those small patches of my past where I was the one who suffered when I was not even guilty!
And today was yet another day when these ghosts decided to peep in. Is there any tonic to keep them away? Like a tablet for cough and cold? Is there a trick by which I can disguise and let them wander in search of me? Is there any way out? Is there a formula where in friends remain friends to you and not cheat on you? Is there a trick to find the right kind of people in your life who will never stab you left right and centre?
On second thoughts-solution or no solution but writing about this made me go away from them for a while, thank god! Writing does help, doesn’t it? One of my good friends just lost her husband [aged not more than 35-36] and I asked her to do the same. Write about her pain, her good times spent with the husband and I’m sure it will help in healing.
Be it friends or family, cheating or death, sour or lost relationships there is surely going to be pain coming with these. And the ghosts of past do tag along with them and reach you easily, maybe that’s their task! So what am I saying at last, that there is no escape from the past? Oh dear!!! Back to square one? Grrrrr….