Having a baby changes your life and most of the part it is for good. Those baby cooing,gurgles and toothless grins are all rewards for that every minute that you’ve spent creating the tiny human being inside you. And this is not all..there is more to look forward to when the baby reaches it’s milestones and your report card gets more +ve grades.You feel proud for yourself and happy for that tiny baby who is happy being dependant on you and enjoys your touch,voice and company-You’re her certified clown,friend,mother and provider of everything ! So there…
But having said that motherhood in general brings in a lot more other things too which generally we tend to ignore / sideline / never mention or try to forget or keep aside. Like every thing else there are cons attached to this event of your life too.
When I was carrying Chirpy I was very sure that I will get back to work once she is moderately big / grown up and will be able to be by herself [read:without mommy] ..the thought nestled in my mind comfortably and I was happy that I had taken a decision well in advance and that there is no stopping me from any corner of the family. Great!
Having reached this phase where Chirpy is 2 month young [already? :shock:] now and she is still in her wonderland phase where she just eats,pees and poops and sometimes cries the thought of getting back to work has started showing it’s face in my mind. Yes, I was pre-decided but I never thought that I would think about it this early.
But the question is what is early? And if this is early then what is cut off period when a mother should / could leave a child behind and go to work? I know there is no such thing as a cut off period or so. It’s solely an individual’s choice depending upon the circumstances one is in.
I enjoy all the time that I spend with Chirpy at home right now but ultimately there is more to me as person than just being a mother to a baby. Don’t get me wrong. I love my daughter and am totally in love with this new phase of my life but as I said there is a gadget in my body which requires constant fodder and some jiggle to do every now and then rather let it be at one place,unattended and locked- that is my brain dear people..my brain requires functioning big time and by that I mean being on my toes and working-some work which lets me remain sane and lets me be in touch with the inner me.
I certainly need to work or else I’ll lose myself somewhere in this drill of life which also means that I might as well turn insane. I can’t let my brain sit,relax and rust !
I’m on a look out for a job and just by the mention of it I’ve started receiving the flak from the family and relatives. You know how it is, don’t you? But as long as H is on my side I don’t have to give a damn to anyone ! I don’t understand why can’t people just let others be? Why do they have to poke their noses in everything that the other person is doing? Why? Well this reminds me of a recent incident that took place…but for that another post..yes this means another rant coming up your way ! 😉
Any way, I don’t know when is the right time but I think when the couple is ready and the baby is comfortable to be on her own AND you have helping hand at home [which is very important] I think that’s the time the mother can step out for few hours of assignment if not a full time working job. I really wish I land up in something which I heart and would go with our timeline and arrangements ! Pray for me,will you not ?