All my worries go out of the window the moment I hug you…the moment I see your innocent face..I like watching you when you’re fast asleep that gives me time to take in all your sweetness and simplicity. No wonder it is said that children are god’s gift. Yes you’re my prized possession,my gift for life. I love you to the core but wait a minute do I even have to say this to you? Don’t mothers all across the world fall in love with their children every single time they see them? You’re growing right in front of my eyes and today I don’t regret for a moment to have become a stay at home woman. Yes it pinches some times and my heart aches too when I think about the good old times spent in office,working,the hustle bustle of my life and not to forget the fat pay check on last day of each month. But then that’s being human isn’t it? to miss somethings while being into something else?
In all these letters that I write you I’m being honest with you Chirpy-that’s what my first lesson to you would be-to be honest to self and to others. It’s quiet addictive I’m telling you! You are honest for once and you feel happy about yourself,lighter and merrier! Okay but this is not the point right now. This lesson can wait. Right now I’m wanting to share something with you-
I’m being judged. Not that I’vent been judged earlier so then what’s the big deal now you ask? It is a big deal today for me cause today I’m being judged as a mother.I’m being judged because I leave you home with gran-ma for couple of hours and go out to do my chores,sometimes have a cuppa coffee with a friend and catch a flick with your dad. Point to note here is your dad is not being judged at all-reason being simple-fathers are not supposed to sit at home all the time with their children but mothers are-especially the stay at home mothers. I don’t know what will you feel about it when you understand things or when you read this. But I want to tell you that going out leaving you behind doesn’t mean that I forget you or I don’t care for you or I’m not a mother type. Tell me how does one define a mother type? Ah..forget it !
If parenting means to stick to your children ALL the time of the day,giving up on your time,your hobbies,your likes and dislikes then sorry I’m not the ‘kind of parent’ one should have. I do understand that there are alterations to be made once the baby arrives and I’m all for it-after all I asked for the baby so I’m ready to change my lifestyle but ‘changing’ lifestyle doesn’t mean converting my self into a NEW me altogether or does it? If yes then please tell me where will I get a new me,which shop? which website? huh?
Chirpy, mamma needs her time too and she loves living life by doing her things but of course not at the cost of ‘dumping’ you alone [as per the judges you see]. I know someday you’ll know all this and would not regret having me as a mother or would you?
In hope of a understanding between you and me,