Today you’ve turned 6 months young. Every mother goes through this feeling where in she wants her baby to slow down a bit..rewind if possible. I’m not an exception and here I’m,feeling the same sentiments,looking at you with pride,joy filling my heart….you’re 6 months complete today!
What all happened in these 6 months is a bit difficult to list down here right now but all I can say is you’ve grown to be a sweet little darling to us..we’ve grown to be your parents…we’re learning at every step..at times I feel we’re immature to handle you and at times I’m surprised at the way we tackle situations so easily..parenting is a magical word..it has it’s own ups and downs and trust me even the downs have fun strings attached to them 🙂
I’ve come to realize that what they say is right..a child teaches you to deal with life..it’s innocence teaches you to let things go and change your perspective…to set the priorities right…now I know why these things are not taught at any school…cause there is an appointed teacher for us all…our children 🙂
Chirpy,I’ve so much to tell you always…but when Aai sits down to jot down things she tends to forget and lose track of what she is writing…there is so much I want to do with you..for that I feel time should fast forward a bit and take me to the phase when you start talking to me,we go shopping hand in hand,you have your own choices and you tell me that you want green and not yellow,that you want to wear the dungarees and not the shorts…I so want to reach that stage where I can see my little doll doing things her own way…making me run around her all the time 🙂
But right at this moment when I look back,at your pictures…they make me nostalgic…I recall how you came to our lives..right from the day when I came to know that I’ve you in my tummy…how your Daddy were so excited and he at that instant started talking to you 😀 how you connected to him from inside me…how you kicked me when we went on long drives,when daddy played pokey pokey with you and when you used to feel hungry 🙂 you gave signals to me…
You know Chirpy I had heard from lot of mothers that motherly instinct tells a pregnant woman about the gender of her baby…but you know your Aai,don’t you? 😉 She just didn’t get that right till the last day…but but baby…just the day before..in fact just few hours before your arrival I told your daddy that you’re a girl ! yeah I was so confident when I said that and I also thought of your name then ..it was Aratrika [meaning: the pious lamp beneath tulsi plant lit in evenings,said to be killing the darkness & evil] But your daddy wanted to go by the ‘janm akshar’ so Aratrika it could not be..but what you’ve right now is precious too 😀
We did have little problems to adjust to each other in the initial days but we did fairly well,I must say you cooperated well. I was a new mom,the first timer and I had no clue as to how to deal with post pregnancy mood swings,handle the newest addition to life,the family,my life in itself…I was confused but your daddy and you held me tightly,thank you for that baby.
There were times when I felt so unreal for being a mother. I felt inadequate to play the role that I had chosen for myself. I thought may be this was not the right time…but all these feelings vanished when I looked at you..when you tugged at me…you loved sleeping on my tummy endlessly and I felt so connected to you,you looked at me into my eyes as if trying to say ‘all is well,mommy’ 🙂 I got your signals again and I felt better…you made it better for me..you’ve been brave till date and I’m sure you going to be the same,little,cuddly,brave girl going forward!
Chirpy, you’ve started sitting, rolling,slightly crawling and now trying to make some ‘word’ sounds…sometimes I feel who tells you that now is the time you have start trying to crawl..now is the time you have to learn to sit…who? How does it all work? Magic. Yeah it’s magical…babies in itself are like magic show forever in parent’s life 🙂
You have outgrown your old clothes and I keep stacking them in cupboard rather than giving them to some expectant mothers…I don’t feel like letting go any of it which has the scent of you..the clothes,the toys,your tiny socks,eating bibs..nothing! It’s all so precious to me…I sometimes take them out and touch them..feel them against my skin and I feel the same tiny you in my arms…
We bought you some books in August and since then we’re reading them to you..2 stories each day…initially you enjoyed listening to us but now you’ve stopped doing that…instead you snatch the book from our hand and insist on reading it yourself 😛 yeah yeah a reader in making already :D.There are so many wishes on my mind regarding you and one if it is coming true it seems…I always wished that my baby should love reading and that I should not be made to force books upon you..you bringing that wish true for me,thank you doll !
I owe this happiness to you my darling…you’ve changed our world and no matter how hard life gets on us we always have you to look at and forget about everything that’s bothering us…your one smile and things get better in an instant…you are our angel baby…we love you the most! And even if I write in so many words,I would never be able to tell you how much I love you and that you mean so much to me…..but I’ll keep trying to tell you through these letters about my feelings…about what I go through when you suffer from cold,how I cry when you fall down the bed [yeah you managed to do that twice :(],how I laugh out loud at your joker acts ;), how I feel like gobbling you up when your’e sleeping….how I feel contended when you wrap your hands around my neck & hug me tight….aww baby…I love so much darling…I love you!
We feel blessed to have you in our life,stay chirpy,stay happy and stay healthy!
With loving wishes,A very happy 6th month b’day to you,
Aai & Daddy
P.S. Did I tell you how your daddy is becoming possessive about you day in day out? His world literally revolves around you now and he has changed in so many ways effortlessly! Few years back when I asked him to accompany me to the swimming classes, he simply ignored my wish saying it bores him and just day before we were discussing of starting your swimming classes when you turn 1-1.1/2..he suddenly came up with this idea that he must learn swimming right now to accompany you later,huh! And it is not an idea any more it is a reality…your daddy did his swim suit shopping and got himself enrolled already:) Anything for you darling,anything for you 🙂