So now I can say it’s 4 smiles,2 good mornings and 1 Hi in the class. Not bad for 4 weeks into being a student,again!
The class is fun and it’s refreshing me every single day. When I return, it’s a fresh new day ahead of me and I’m so energetic.I’m loving it and the people around me are noticing the change and happy about it. DC is especially happy cause he has been worried about me getting into the cycle of i’m-not-good-for-anything-and-wasting-my-time-on-earth bouts! Which was getting quiet frequent in past few days. I’ve been out of work for 2 years now and motherhood though has brought so much to my life it still cannot fill that empty spot which was created by being jobless.
So,getting up early and having a routine for self in the morning is helping me bring myself back to the normalcy state. I’m a peoples’ person in and out and being at home all the time and sticking around to just handful of people and doing the same chores every day has become monotonous for me. And also there is no end to this,as of now,cause I don’t have a hope to hang on to-that this is a finite break from work and that after this or this month I’ll be back to racking my brains!
But even after going to a class for physical and mental fitness I still know that the feeling exists in my heart somewhere that be it anything,at the end of the day I’m a full time mom and a home-maker! No,I’m not regretting being a full time mom but the fact that Chirpy also needs a break from me leaves me wondering when would I get a break from this routine!
Speaking of Chirpy! She is already growing into an individual it seems and till now I’ve noticed some characteristic of her -she doesn’t like to be tamed around,she wants to be on her own-now that she has realized that there is more to do than just lying around in crib/in the chair. She is an explorer.She is adamant. She wants to be in command.She can’t take ‘no’ for anything. All this at this stage when she is merely 7 months young!
I know all babies might be the same at this stage and that there is still more to come and get added to the personality but I can see all this now and the sense of a mother is usually not wrong is what I’ve heard and experienced too most of the times! I feel she is going to be very logical. She will demand answers to lot of questions that are unattended till date. She is not going to let go of things easily unless she is convinced that she must!
Quiet an independent personality traits these. But of course there are changes going to take place in her going forward and I know I might come back and read this few months from now and shake my head in disbelief that I judged my daughter at this early stage! She might turn out to be something entirely different than I’m thinking right now,may be! But as of today she is this…this one sure shot independent person who demands,nags and is playful all the time and doesn’t want to sleep unless she wants to !
Okay so I started with something about my classes and about self and ended talking about the girl in my kitty 🙂 that’s what motherhood is,isn’t it?
Coming week is going to be very hectic for us because of the upcoming travel. And this being little girlie’s first travel I’m excited and hyper,both not-so-good-for-health states 🙂 I’m worried that she might be cranky though the airtime is just about an hour’s but still,you never know…last time when I was travelling from Mumbai to home..there were 3 kids in the flight approx 1 year,6 months and 3 months of ages. The entire flight went by quiet and it was surprising that three kids in the plane and none made a noise or became cranky…I was all the time thinking about our travel next week and was smiling that everything will go well with chirpy too…just then the 1 year old started crying for something-just at the time of landing and she became so cranky that she started howling loudly and listening to her form no where the other two kids started crying too and it was like a cry in unison for rest of the 20 mins till we all got out of the flight! *shudder* and then again I started thinking about our travel of next week ! I hope things don’t go out of control !!
I’ve been calling friends for tips to keep the baby in good shape in the flight…yeah I can make small things appear so big….but all the friends that I spoke to have given some important tips to take care of infant in the flight and I feel well equipped to start the journey now 🙂