Sometimes it gets difficult to streamline your thoughts.It’s not easy to fight with yourself inside,showing a brave face on the outside. And surprisingly life keeps throwing such situations at me all the time!
I’ve to learn to say things right then & there. Why is it that whenever there is a need to speak the right things that my mind has already thought about,I can’t speak them at that point? And when the moment is gone I realize I had to say this and say that.
My head aches but it doesn’t stop rewinding the incident and every time making me realize I had to say so much and I just let it go,taking it all on me? Loosing the battle? It hurts,but the time has slipped away…and I’m left with consoling myself that there will be a next time and I’ll do good then,which ironically is not true!
Sometimes the hurt reaches you so deep that it stops aching at all. There are corners which start loosing their sharpness and you’re left confused with the unshapely block…to find ways to get out of the never ending circle of thoughts! You don’t even want to blame the person anymore,because of whom you feel all this.
Is this the way you let go? Is it called letting go?