Just heard a tough news about my very old friend-she met with an accident and died on the spot. I don’t know how to take this in. I’m unable to digest this news. the tough news…it’s just not only bad but it is like a hard hitting fact of life…that it is not predictable. It shows it’s colors as and when it wishes to!
The series of events that led me to this news were something like this:
A classmate smses me: Did you hear about T? Are you sure it’s true?
Me: And what is it about?
Friend: A pretty bad news about her….can’t seem to believe! Can you check from somewhere whether it’s true?
Me: *now puzzled and get the seriousness of the sms, log in to FB and straight away go to her page to find it filled with RIP messages !!!!*
SHOCKED! I felt paralyzed, in fact right now I feel the same while typing in all this! She was just 33….I made few calls here and there and got to know that it is indeed true! How I want that news to be a fake one. To be a joke that some stupid friends of hers were playing on FB!!! How I wish….
I was taken to the past. To the times that we have spent together as giggly teenagers. We lived in the same building-a two story apartment. Were in the same school, commuted in the same auto rickshaw and pretty much had same friends in colony though she was 2 years elder to me. I’ve spent quiet a lot of time of my life-must say the building years of my teenage time…sharing secrets…glancing at boys…even sharing the arrival of menstruation period in our lives…!!!!
We used to fight a lot too but at the end of the day patched up like good girls …I remember we used to climb that water tank on the terrace and sit there for hours talking…every thing is so crystal clear in my memory…
But all this is coming to my mind only now when she is no more…when I know I can never talk to her,see her…Did we take life too much for granted? How important it is to stay in touch with loved ones? Past few years we have been living in different cities..she got married and had a son which made her life busier than ever and then this side Chirpy’s arrival too made me drown into my own world….we have hardly spoken properly in last 3-4 years…either it’s some silly joke that we smsed to each other or some likes and comments on each other’s FB page….
And now when time has slipped from my hand…I look back and think how dear she was to me…how I ignored picking up the phone and talking to her.
I ask god to at least be merciful and grant strength to uncle,aunty and her younger sister. They must be feeling terrible…terrible is such a small word for this loss and I don’t even want to imagine what her husband of 4 years and her son of 2 years must be going through!!!!
Life is certainly unpredictable and doesn’t give us another chance….just don’t wait for the right time to come…just pick up that phone make a call to your friend…to whom you haven’t had called since ages…just do it now cause there is no tomorrow to depend on !!! It’s time to act and not procrastinate…to say what you want to..to do what you want to!!! Life just doesn’t see age or time…it sucks up the person when it wants to and we are left helpless feeling terrible…I hate this moment..I hate this day…I hate things like this happening!!!!!
I know nothing will stop…people will move on..even her family..but then the fact remains..she’ll never come back…and that’s the bottom line!