cause what else should I be called then?
All the while sometime back I was looking forward to getting back to work and get busy in life, to do something out of the education that I’ve got, to add value to the degrees which are lying safe in the jacket file, to be independent busy working lady….
and today when all of it is coming to be true, I dislike this state of mine? Yeh pagalpan nahi hai toh kya hai? [yeh pretty much like MPK’s dialogue ‘yeh pyar nahi to kya hai Suman’?]
I want to be home, to be free, to see my child grow, to be at her side all the time, to read and basically to laze around,huh! How typically foolish is that?
I want to see the other side, I want to be reminded how desperate I became to retain my sanity by working, I want be reminded how foolish it is to think that my child needs me ALL the time by her side, I want to stop denying the fact that she is pretty much on her own now, in almost everything that she does and she doesn’t care much if I’m sticking to her every minute, I have to re-accept that she prefers her own space and is happy with the current arrangement, that she looks forward to the evenings when I come home to her but surely is not sad that I’m not around her in the day!
I need to tighten my thoughts…now tell me if I’m not a nut!