Something has changed inside. Is it like growing up effect? Or coming on this side of 30 effect? Whatever it is called,if it is called something,that is!
I’ve been a very emotional kind of person throughout my life, I get attached pretty soon to people, I trust people at a very early stage, I long for tight friendships, relationships are utmost importance to me yada yada, you know!
So, for any person like this, it is easy to cry at the drop of hat,I’m sure you agree. When people leave, depart, detach or ditch…crying comes easily….and I’ve been doing the same-either cry by tears OR in heart.
Last week, Chirpy’s masseuse of almost 2 years left. She had some major family problem and had to shift back to her village. It was sudden and quick. Within a couple of days she left us. The last day when she came to meet Chirpy for the last time she cried buckets. She said all the things of missing us, Chirpy and all. All this while what was I doing? I was silently watching her despair and just plain telling her ‘it is okay, you must come and visit us often; we’ll meet sometime again in life,I’m sure’ type of things. Not a single tear welled up in my eyes.
I’ve been talking to this lady since she had started working for us. And she has been very talkative, expressive and quiet friendly. Always interested in knowing new things, learning about what is my work all about, what does Human Resource mean and how does life outside household works for working women. What is Internet and how I pay my bills typing few keys here and there whereas she still stands in long queues for the same. She wanted to know everything. She was in a way my friend with whom I chatted a lot, every day.
For Chirpy, she has been a god mother category women. Chirpy was so fond of her, every day when she came in Chirpy used to squeal in delight. every single day! It was a great association all this long and suddenly she had to leave!
I do miss her, of course, that’s why this post dedicated to her, I mean yes she is on my mind since last week when I saw her last! Life moves on and all that, but ironically people get left behind, far away!
Coming back to me not crying or feeling emotional at the time of her exit; I have realized that in past few instances, I have appeared emotionally strong and have not cried, not that I did not feel bad. So, maybe I’m changed? Motherhood? Ha! the guess could be anything,right?