This is from the time when I used to commute between cities while I was in Mumbai. I was travelling in the train and had got the side upper berth.
If you generally know, the travelling rule for the upper berths is that if the journey is in the day time, upper berth passengers are allowed to sit on the lower berths and if they *themselves* want to sleep on their upper berth, in the day time, they are most welcome to do so!
So, in this trip, I got side upper berth and the side lower berth, which are usually allotted to RACs, was under the name of a couple. The journey began at 4 pm. A very much day time when I’m not supposed to climb up the upper berth and go to sleep or whatever!
This couple had lower berth and in top of that a RAC reservation. I was sitting on one side of the side lower berth and both of them were sitting on the rest of the berth. After a while, they wanted to spread their legs, which is natural cause sitting in one position and that too 3 on side berth is not comfortable for anyone.
The conversation thus begun:
Husband: Can you please go to your berth?
Me: But I don’t want to sleep right now.
Husband: So that’s not my problem. This is our seat.
Me: I agree *a part* of this berth belongs to you and that’s why I’m occupying only one part.
Wife: No but because of you we are not comfortable, we need space to sit.
Me: One of you can sit on the other lower berth, which is any way vacant.
Husband: Why the hell should we shift, you must because this is our seat.
Me: Your ticket is RAC, the whole berth is not yours and not even reserved!
Husband: Let me call T.C.!!!!
Me: Please go ahead!
I might have sounded firm and strong in the entire conversation but in reality I was not even a bit of it ! I was terrified, shattered and felt terribly lonely. I would not have argued at all if the couple would have simply said that “can you please shift to other lower berth?”. Which I would have entertained easily but the way they started talking to me and the pitch of their voice, it put me off because I was taking the right stance!
However, after this whole conversation I went to the loo and cried buckets 😦 I can’t stand loud voice, fights, arguments and unpleasant conversations. I’m not a fighters types, I accept that!
What I learnt from the entire episode? This:
–If you’ve taken a stance and you believe in it, stick to it!
-There is nothing called high voice/low voice, all that matters is the intention of the person who is speaking to you!
-If you can’t handle things, don’t get into them. And if you get into them, learn handling it all!!!
Looking back, all I feel hurt about is, I cried! Like a kid I cried for nothing and that’s what I feel embarrassed about. I need to become strong, for my own self and for my daughter now. What will I teach her if I cry like this in front of her for tiny things in life? There are so many shitty things that keep happening in life, what about them then?
I mustn’t waste my tears on things like these, there are better things available to shed the tears!!!!