Sometimes my mind wanders unnecessarily, to unnecessary corners where it is not at all required to invest my energies. Sometimes, it is not even a thing to be bothered about but I still do. Why? What for? Is that a personality trait that will die with me only?
I want to push away negative thoughts, never let them touch me, whatsoever, but the kind of person that I’m, I myself attract thoughts that give me headache. My imagination powers so strong that I can even think of something that is probably not going to happen whatsoever in future!
I’ve this thing for relationships. I fall deep in them. Nothing wrong at this stage too. Just that I want other person also to feel the same as I do for the relationship. I expect, yes that’s THE problem. I expect and people don’t bother that much as to how I feel about their behaviour or actions and why should they, seriously why should they think of me, who am I to them?
I fall for them, my choice, my fault! I should not blame anyone but myself for this!
Also, on top of it, I also don’t know how to move on. I’m a sucker of emotions and I hate losing friends. I hate breaking relationships and I detest any sadness that surrounds it.
Basically, I want the world to work the way I want it too, haha! I want everything to be hunky dory, to be smooth as ice-cream and people to be as emotional as I feel about them!
See so many expectations from people that I forget to be practical and live my life peacefully. There are friends that mind something and then turn your back at you, forever.
Maybe I hurt them deeply, maybe something I did that disturbed them, they too are human beings and they get hurt too, right? So, I can demand them to be always happy with me or keep talking to me whatsoever! I should get this right!
I need to learn to accept that there are relationships that go wrong, there are friends that turn their backs on you, there are things that hurt your friends no matter how simple they seem to you! I need to learn to stop clinging to each person that I care for… I need to stop caring for each person that comes in my life, that’s important I think!!!
What do you do when faced with such situations? Are you emotional or practical? What’s your take on such situations?