Dear Chirpy-High Five

Dear Daughter Chirpy,

2016 is an important year for us. One of the greatest things happened is you turned 5 this year! A mark in itself, of growing up, becoming Didi and understanding whole lot of things that we didn’t imagine that you can!

I think I should stop saying this, we can never imagine what all you can think or logically arrive as a conclusion at. You always surprise us, amaze us and make us proud with your wit, intelligence and comic streak! I love that you are a fun loving child and that you seldom feel low or sad and you are totally and completely indulged in happiness and living life!

That being said, you cry at the drop of the hat, my dear girl, you are very sensitive and feel deep for people and things around. I respect that, but at the same time I want to tell you to not be so emotional about things or people so much so that you feel weak! But then your Deda tells me to let you be, its not the right time to tell you big life lessons. We have our own debate going on this one, I think you should be guided on the right path right from the start and he thinks I should let you evolve as a person on your own.

So yes, he’s right but at the same time I feel I’m not wrong either. I don’t want you to be strong and sturdy at your heart, feel for right things and let other things go! While we are yet to arrive at the conclusion of our debate, we are just letting time take its own course.

Today when I see you as a big sister, my heart melts. Today you are exactly the same sister to Sibby that I had imagined-loving caring and protecting him. On the other hand, Sibby being a boy, he shows his boy genes and dominates you, sometimes bully’s you (of course he doesn’t know that he’s doing that ๐Ÿ˜‰ ) and we are NOT surprised to see that you never retaliate. You remain affectionate towards him and cuddle him more. Sibby, as right now we can gauge is a little moody. He is playful with you when he wants to and then there’s no limit to his love for you! He’ll shower you with sloppy kisses and even give you small bites as token of his love ๐Ÿ™‚ (Yeah, that’s how Sibby shows love to someone-by biting on cheeks!) We enjoy this sight, we love the way you two are growing up and especially when you are off to school Sibby is the one who feels most upset seeing his partner go away, its a sign, he loves you to bits dear didi!

Dear Chirpy, you are a lovely girl, sometimes a little naughtier but other times you are an angel ๐Ÿ™‚ Mamma keeps saying this all the time, but seriously, she means this to the core , She loves you a lot!

And to answer your question if I love you the most than anyone else, yes baby, I love you the most!

Yours Lovingly,

Aai!

 

Chirpy, my little bird!

My 4 year old girl sounds all grown up and prepared to take care of her baby sibling. She talks so confidently about the future that is just around the corner that sometimes I feel like a surrogate mother, you know what I mean? Like I’m just popping out a baby for her to take care of it there onwards.

She has already given us instructions that she’ll feed the baby, bathe it and play with him/her. By the way she calls the baby “Bunny”. This name came instantly the moment we disclosed about the baby news to her, 6 months back.

So, she is going to be the “mamma” of the new baby, in her thoughts and terms and conditions that she has laid down for us. When we questioned her that what will happen when she goes to the school, to that she said, only in that time you or Deda can look after the baby, otherwise, you guys are not supposed to do anything at all !!!!!!

*strict warning* that, no? ๐Ÿ™‚

Talking about this, I realize that it is so easy to share things with children. If you are open and non-hiding about general things in life, children also take it normally and don’t fuss over the deeper facts etc. Like I remember, we were thinking when to tell Chirpy about the new arrival that we are expecting. We wondered if telling her in 1st trimester would be too early? Or telling her at all would be right before I start showing up? So all this while when we brainstorm, we finally decided together, that we will simply tell her that we are going have a new baby with us after some days from now.

She was surprised for sure, happy and started thinking. She had many questions that time and we took them one at a time. Earlier the questions were easy, because all she thought was we will go out and bring the baby in, that simple. But then when I started showing, and I started keeping her at a safe distance to not let her jump on me or play with me rigorously, she got to another set of questions.

Our answers changed too, but we kept them to bare minimum and simpler. Babies do grown in mammas’ tummies and then mammas have to go the hospital for the doctor to bring the baby out. She made peace with this, but then she did ask me as to “when did I know that the baby came into my tummy” ๐Ÿ™‚ ย To which I told her when doctors told me ๐Ÿ˜› I don’t know how convinced she was but I panicked a little on hearing that question. Though I didn’t show it to her at all, after all I’m supposed to stay calm and know all the answers no? ๐Ÿ™‚

Anyway, all I’m saying is so far it is good, the question and answer sessions between us is not that taxing. That said, I’m not sure how far it is going to be this relaxing ๐Ÿ™‚ But honestly, these moments are interesting. Chirpy makes us think, think hard sometime, as to what could be the better version, in terms of words presentation, of the reality.

My little girl, my birdie, is growing up. I keep telling her that sometimes, Mamma will be very busy to attend her, so she not mind or feel neglected. Mamma, loves her the same, in any condition or state. To which she says, “I know mamma, loves me theeeeeeese much *spreading her arms wide open*”

When did she grow up so much to understand everything? I feel very sentimental when I think of her and all the understanding that she is showing right now. I went through her baby pictures of past 4 years and boy, what a ride it was. Looking at your baby grow like this, knowing all the things that have all of us have gone through, the joys and happiness, the smiles and tears and all the fun that we 3 had, thank god for pictures, we can revisit the moments again and again ๐Ÿ™‚

My little girl has grown up, indeed!

Just Some Sweet Nothings…

…which really mean a lot!

^Chirpy is more than caring, acting like a beeg baby already and planning stuff to do in later days from now.

^She understands that she has to behave in a manner that she be called a good elder sister, every act and every thought now circled around this one thing : I’m a big sister and I’ve to be a good example.

^Books, Toys and now even clothes are categorically being sorted and kept aside for later use.

^The wait is long, she knows but she is patient, careful and helpful in my journey!

^She has a routine, which has not broken as yet, to start the day by wishing good morning and go on until she says good night to her younger sibling, she does it religiously, with so much passion and love!

^I feel emotional, teary eyed and thankful to the almighty for letting me experience these sweet nothings that life is offering to me, and I’m glad I’m able to hold these all and save in my heart!

Dear Chirpy, you are the first love of my life and you shall always be, no matter what, no matter who! You’re going to be the same to me, months and years later from now. I’ve loved you with my heart, and that love is reserved for you! You’ve a special place carved in my heart, which belongs only to you, and no one can reach there, trust me! Everything that you do and say , every little thing that you did first, is right here, etched in my mind, to never forget ! You are always going to be my first… nothing can change that my love!

Yours Mamma!

Dear Chirpy-Four And How…

Dear Chirpy,

You are soon going to be 4 now. A big girl indeed. We’ve had 4 happy joy ride years with you and I can’t express enough the happiness that you’ve given to us. We love you, to bits. 4 years back, at this time, I was so anxious, so eager to have you in my arms. I was waiting, counting each day by passing hours. It was time to keep a track of your movements and you my girl, entire 9 months you’ve been an awesome baby inside my tummy. And once out, you’ve been a non stop roller coaster of chirpy-ness and laughter andย dher sari masti!

I ย love your personality and I’m not saying this because I’m your mother but other than that as well, I love the person you are becoming. You are inquisitive, honest, straightforward, non-messy, de-tangled, moderately emotional, loving and giving! You are a giver, you love sharing your things with everyone that you know is close to you or us. You are fun loving, outgoing and total dance maniac.

All this combined is going to be a great girl altogether, I’m sure ๐Ÿ™‚

There is always so much going on your mind. You’ll have umpteen number of questions for us and you want them to be answered right away. You know why I love this? Because that makes us think too and gives our thoughts a different perspective. I like talking to you, you are like me, a non stop chatterbox ๐Ÿ™‚

And in all other ways, you take after your Deda. Intelligence, looks, honesty, smartness and loving nature.

When you were born, just very little, tiny bundle, I and your Deda used to talkย debate about whom would you look like etc. And today we both are happy souls, why, because you’ve got right mix of both of us. You balanced us out and we couldn’t have settled down for anything better than this ๐Ÿ™‚

Chirpy, today now that you are grown up from your past self, I would like to tell you that Mamma feels proud of you. Whatever you are, for that she loves you very much! Sometimes, Mamma feels scared, about raising a daughter in this kind of society, and feels insecure! But in hearts of hearts I know, things are going to be fine for all of us. We’re going to be that perfect family, happy, safe and experiencing simple joys of life. I know I kind of deviated from the actual and wrote something that maybe I should not have written right now, in this letter, after all this is your B’day letter, but then I just opened my heart to you, Mamma is being frank with you sweetie!

When you have a sibling, I’m sure you are going to rock that new role that you’ll have to play, for your entire life. You are a perfect elder sister any sibling can have. I wait for that day when I will see you playing with you sibling, sharing things and teaching new stuff to him/her. I know you long for one now, you understand the equation which has two people in a relationship where one is Didi and other is younger ๐Ÿ™‚ You’ve got that from one of your best friends, SV. She is a sweet little girl, just like you, I know you both are going to be fast friends, in fact I want that to happen ๐Ÿ™‚

So, all I’m saying is, time is running, you are growing up, no more our little bundle but a sweet little person. But always remember, for parents, their child is always a small baby, trust me, no matter how old you become, you’ll always remain our small little bundle of joy, our little princess!

We love you very much!

Happy 4th in advance darling ๐Ÿ™‚

Yours

Aai.

Chirpy-ness 5

The conversations and discussions in our household are getting interesting day by day, with little Chirpy growing up with her growing logical reasoning and curiosities. I seriously do enjoy being a parent all the more now. It is like a new flavor in this whole parenting thing that has spiced it up yet again!

Incident 1: Last few days, Chirpy was after us to get home a ‘black&white’ as soon as possible. When we first heard this term, we obviously were clueless as to what she wanted, then we found out that she wanted a keyboard to play music. Now where she saw that, how this thing got into her head, we have no clue but as long as she is getting right things in her head, we are fine! So the discussion about buying a ‘black&white’ started. We first dilly-dallied a little, not to jump on her wishes immediately and all that, balanced parenting tricks or whatever! So we told her ok, let us see and etc. But we noticed that this continued for more than a week and that she was consistent on her fancy for the keyboard. Finally, we thought of really buying one for her. We looked for it online, talked to a few friends for advices/options and settled down on something that looked interesting on Amazon. Our instant thought was to get a toy keyboard for her but then we re-thought that since she is now growing up we should buy her a basic keyboard that would do good for her for say around 2-3 years and she might as well develop an interest in playing & learning it. So this is the lengthy background. Now cut to the conversation we had around this :

Chirpy: When are we getting the B&W for me?

Us: Today we shall order it online.

Chirpy: Okay, so when today?

Us: Right now princess, see Deda is doing it on the computer.

Chirpy: Keenly watching him order it.

Us: See this is the one you shall get home *showing her the image*

Chirpy: Ok great ๐Ÿ™‚ What time it will come home today?

Us: Oh no,no, it will not come today, we’ve just ordered it aka purchased it. Now it will take 3-4 days to come home.

Chirpy: *baffled* But why so? You said you just paid the money from the computer!

Us: Yes darling but that’s how online shopping works. *telling her the concept of online shopping*

Chirpy: *discarding the idea of online shopping* huh, what use! If we go to the shop they will give you the B&W immediately when you give them the money!!! This online shopping is not good!

So, all the online shoppers, did you think of this flip-side of not doing the shopping exercise physically? Haha. Honestly, I really appreciate her logic. She is right, we say online is faster, doable, manageable on the go but ultimately we wait for a good 3-4 days to get our product in hand and sometimes more than this. Kids, seriously are genius and so purely logical in their approach, it surely is a time of relearning for us ๐Ÿ™‚

Incident 2: She has just learnt the concept of the sportย ‘langdi’ย  and was trying to do it yesterday. But within 5-10 mins she started crying saying that she is not able to do it perfectly and her other leg comes down faster. She wants to get it right, right away! We explained to her that she is doing it right and if she practices she’ll perfect it sooner. I also told her that even mamma learnt it very late, just thinking that this will give her some patience. But then, this is Chirpy, a toddler we are talking about, right? Here’s how the conversation went through:

Chirpy: *crying* I can’t get it right, why?

Us: You will get it right sweetie, just practice a little more.

Chirpy: No, No, No. I want to get it right now!

Us: Mamma also learnt it after lot of practice, this is how we learn. It is okay!

Chirpy: *raising her volume* Noooo, I want do it right now!!!

Us: See you learnt to ride your small cycle after a few days of practicing it, you learnt playing badminton after few days of practicing it, so it is the same with this as well.

Chirpy: *now highly irritated and totally not convinced with us* I don’t like this, I should learn it now, now, now!

We somehow diffused her irritation by again repeating the logic and diverting her to something else giving her assurance that we shall do it together tomorrow. But the whole point here is, the kid that she is sometimes gets too adamant and is not ready to listen. She has become demanding, from herself and wants everything to happen right away. In a way it is good that she wants perfection but the irritation that she feels makes me think what if this becomes her habit & compulsion to know/learn everything that may pull her down in big things in life later? Possibility no? I know this is a far fetched thought but you never know, this is a developmental stage that she is in and she might become the person she is carrying the perception and attitude of things right now. I hope as a parent I’m able to diffuse her going over board on expectations from herself, teach her balancing and channelize her energies in right direction at the right time! Who said parenting is a cake walk,anyone? ๐Ÿ™‚

Simple Questions

Children are so cute, innocent and have such simple queries running in their minds. I really believe that we adults make our lives complicated when we grow up. All our innocence goes out of the window.

Today Chirpy asked us: “Why my bathing towel is printed with baby things and yours are plain in colour?”

This made me think, kids think so much but differently. Their questions are so simple and cute in nature. Sometimes they do leave us speechless but mostly they give us a direction to think and perspective to ponder upon.

Kids I tell you ๐Ÿ™‚

 

For Feeling Better

Today is a rough day. Well not rough basically, but a lull day or maybe I’m not in sync with everyone else around! I don’t know the specific reason but certainly something is not right.

I’m at office, there is so much work to do and I still don’t have that inclination to pick those papers, review them and do with it. In fact while I write this, those papers are giving me a bad stare and my team members are also muttering bad names for me (I’m guessing, they’re sweet otherwise) because their tasks are pending for my reviews!!!

I’ve become very lazy these days.All my activeness has vanished. I’m low on energy and enthusiasm. All I want to do these days is have fun, watch movies, listen to music, eat good food and sleep! What a would it would be if there were only these things to do and the money would flow in automatically, the tasks would get done on their own and there would be no boss on your head and no responsibility at all at work? I know, wishful thinking!

Chirpy has become very much vocal about her views, her choices and herย decisionsย ! Yes decisions. We’ve reached to that stage where in she has started taking her own decisions and telling them upfront to us in a manner that we’ve to follow them and there is no option to say No. In a way, I like this change in her, I like that she is independent at the age of 4 (well, she’s almost 4) and that she realizes the importance of exercising her right to speak up and put her view forward. On the other hand, I feel a little worried. She is becoming that person where in she is not ready to give in whatsoever. Once she has decided, it takes a lot to calm her down and convince her to opt for another option. I know this is part and parcel of this age and all that but still, I’m a mother no? So I’ll worry, come what may ๐Ÿ™‚

Her dad is carefree and dotes her endlessly at every instance. They do share a special father-daughter bond, which makes me sentimental. He is very sure of what his daughter is becoming and he is not at all worried about the future. In fact he likes her all the more for being independent. Aah, the father side of the story you see!

So, now before someone comes to me and bangs a hammer on my head to review their task and complete the loop, I must behave like a good manager and do the needful ๐Ÿ™‚ I feel a little better after writing all this. I know there is no sync in the above paragraphs but I still wanted to write it and it feels good to have written two posts in 2 days ๐Ÿ™‚ Achievement ๐Ÿ˜€

How’s your day going on?

Chirpy-ness 4

Yesterday night’s conversation:

Me to Chirpy: Heย is my Husband
Chirpy : No way! He is my husband!!!!
Me: Areh, he is your deda, he is my husband and I’m his wife!
Chirpy: huh, I’m his wife, he is my husband!!! *stomping foot*
Me: Okay,so who is my husband then????? *feeling shocked*
Chirpy: Go out and find him, he is lost! *walks away*

Of course I’m left with nothing, maybe a good reason to find another husband ๐Ÿ˜‰ lol

Finding Chirpy

Today when I went to pick Chirpyย at 11.30, I was afraid, scared and my heart beat faster than I had ever imagined. Chirpy was not to be seen in the line of students children at the gate! *gasp*

I checked with the teacher who was manning the line, she was confused too to not spot Chirpy in the line. I felt angry, why the teacher does not know about her students’ whereabouts? That too a little girl…grrrrrr

So the hustle bustle was set, two teachers ran in two directions to find my daughter. I felt lost and speechless too. I also went in one direction around the school campus… didn’t know where exactly should I look for! My mind raced through several action points.Call her dad. Call police station.Shout at the principal left right & centre. Call my parents and sob. Oh, call office and inform I’m not coming, for don’t know how many days. Call.Call.Call. Oh God, where is Chirpy!

All these action points almost got acted upon in my thoughts in those 2 mins! Then lord Ganesha showered his blessings on my boss, chirpy’s grandparents, her dad, her teachers and the principal…….Chirpy was found !!!!!!

Madam Moselle was dancing, as if there was no tomorrow, on the first floor with the K.G. kids, Lo!!!! And poor teachers, went crazy finding her… although it was their fault too at the first place, to not know where the child was! They have to have an hawk’s eye on all children, right?

And secondly, my brat is a brat only, I know. So I told her too that she is not supposed to go here and there without asking / at least telling her teacher. That’s a good practice good kids follow, to be safe ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope she’ll remember this and will follow…

BTW upon asking her why did she go to the first floor all by her own, Chirpy said ‘I heard music, I wanted to dance, why was I called down? I want to dance more’ !!!!!!

I thought I had to wait for a couple of weeks or a months’ time to start writing ‘these’ type of posts here about Chirpy’s adventures at ‘big’ school, but boy! I was underestimating my girl! Today was the 3rd day in school and she has started her naughty acts already.

P.S. By the way did you also notice the mother in me is the same mother in you too? ๐Ÿ™‚ the same racing of thoughts, the same tension, the same fast forward movie in those 2 mins? ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ Mothers!!!!!!!!!

 

Dear Chirpy-Teen Ka Tadka

Dear Chirpy,

Yet another phase of your life has begun. You’ve entered the ‘new’ school, ‘big’ school. The play group days are over. On your last day at your play group, I felt so emotional. I feltย Iย would miss coming here every morning, seeing all the little children playing in the garden, sliding over and swinging high, crying for their mothers and carrying the little gifts proudly. I would miss meeting your teachers and talking to them about your progress andย dadagiri , yeah quite literally!

But you didn’t show any sign of missing your old school. Not that I was not expecting this, I was very much sure that you would not look back because you were to excited to look forward to your new ‘big’ school that you’d be telling everyone you met about. Also, I think you are too small to understand even the feeling of ‘missing’ something or leaving something behind. It is only me that got all worked up and became all sentimental. Mothers!

Your new school: First day: I was a little skeptical and all that of the washrooms, the play area and the classes… in fact everything of it all! And you, my angelic warrior you simply got hold of your bag from me, gave me a flying kiss and marched past everyone to your class… by the way did you even know which class you had to go in? Hahaha, you just walked in. There were couple of children crying out loud in your class having left alone with the teachers… you sat in your chair in the class, looking around amused, giving a kind of expression that said ‘why are these crying, can someone please tell me?’

I waited in hiding outside your class thinking what if you too start crying looking at other children? Just in case you know! But madam, you were sitting right there with the same expression on your face, why is everyone crying,huh! The entire scene was so touchy, for your sensitive mother, that she started crying herself, even when her own child was not crying but just because other children were wailing for their parents ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

I decided to move out, I walked briskly and got into my car and drove off home!

You know I feel you are way too less emotional but then I think this is good. Not that I want you to be feeling less or something. You do cry your share of tears when it is really needed, you do love with all your innocence and warmth, but you are not touchy, and I think that’s good. You are kind of practical, well, like your father you see!

There is so much you’ve started doing and the long sentences that you keep floating at us, drops my jaws at times. You reason out with us like adults. You are a no nonsense girl who doesn’t want to hear round and round lectures about what not to do or what to do, you simply tell us to cut is short and move on! It surprises us to no bounds, your ability to logically put your argument against ours’ and then most of the time win it since you’re not only logical you are smart enough to turn the bargain into you win we lose, well most of the times ๐Ÿ˜‰

I like the way you call meย Mamma. You’ve stopped calling meย Aai way back. You made this choice on your own. You just decided that I’ll be called asย Mamma! and I never tried to change your choice, whatever you call me, it sounds only sweet! Is the mother in me speaking? oh well!

Just few days back on your 3rd b’day I was telling you how you came into our lives, that morning 3 years back, when you cried and made your entry in this world, smiled at Deda and slept cozily near me. You heard me so intently and you asked me again and again “mamma, how small was I then?” and I told you how fitted in my lap and now you are just growing out of it! You felt amused, to know that you were a baby yourself, you feel that you’ve grown up, like an adult and being a baby is a thing of past, but my darling gabu like the cliched sentiment flows from generation to generation in each family, you’ll always be my baby, no matter how taller or older you grow ๐Ÿ™‚

On your 3rd b’day, I wish you 3 things: Intelligence, Kindness and Compassion. May you have all three in you, always!

Yours Emotional

Mamma!!